Faith Under Fire: An Army Chaplain's Memoir Book

â??Running away from God doesnâ??t work. I had tried.â? â??Roger BenimoffAs he left for his second tour of duty as an Army chaplain in Iraq, Roger Benimoff noted in his journal: I am excited and I am scared. I am on fire for God...He is my hope, strength, and focus. But not long after returning to Iraq, the burdens of his jobâ??the memorial services for soldiers killed in action, the therapy sessions after contact with the enemy, the perilous excursions â??outside the wireâ? while under enemy fireâ??began to overwhelm him. Amid the dust, heat, and blood of Iraq, Benimoff felt the pillar of strength heâ??d always relied on to hold him upâ??his faith in Godâ??begin to crumble. Unable to make sense of the senseless, Benimoff turned to his journal. What did it mean to believe in a God who would allow the utter horror and injustice of war? Did He want these brave young men and women to die? In his darkest moment, Benimoff wrote: Why am I so angry? I do not want anything to do with God. I am sick of religion. It is a crutch for the weak.Benimoffâ??s spiritual crisis heightened upon his return home to Fort Carson, Colorado. He withdrew emotionally from wife and sons, creating tensions that threatened to shatter the family. He was assigned to work at Walter Reed Army Medical Center, where he counseled returning soldiers suffering from post-traumatic stress disorderâ??until he was diagnosed himself with PTSD.Finding himself in the role of patient rather than caregiver, connecting as an equal with his fellow sufferers, and revisiting scriptural readings that once again rang with meaning and truth, he began his most decisive battle: for the love of his family and for the chance to once again open his heart to the healing grace of God. Intimate and powerful, drawing on Benimoffâ??s and his wifeâ??s journals, Faith Under Fire chronicles a spiritual struggle through war, loss, and the hard process of learning to believe again.From the Hardcover edition.Read More