In My Father's Arms: A True Story of Incest (Living Out: Gay and Lesbian Autobiographies) Book

"Walter de Milly has written a sensitive and compelling account of father-son incest. In spite of the suffering portrayed, the account also gives testimony to the strength of family bonds, and to the courage and resilience of the human spirit."-Fred S. Berlin, M.D., Director of the National Institute for the Study, Prevention and Treatment of Sexual Trauma "This is the most detailed and utterly plausible account I've ever read of what it feels like to be an abused child, and it is told with cinematic presence and verisimilitude. The anger, the love, the evasiveness and jealousy and confusion, the need to dissociate oneself from one's own actions and reactions-all are presented in a harrowing narrative, which is as tragic as a Greek drama and as engrossing as a Victorian novel. The unexpected element in this book-which falls on it like manna-is its nourishing, exquisite lyricism."-Edmund White The TV-perfect family of Walter de Milly III was like many others in the American South of the 1950s-seemingly close-knit, solidly respectable, and active in the community. Tragically, Walter's deeply troubled father would launch his family on a perilous journey into darkness. To the outside world, this man is a prominent businessman, a dignified Presbyterian, and a faithful husband; to Walter, he is an overwhelming, handsome monster. Whenever the two are together, young Walter becomes a sexual plaything for his father; father and son outings are turned into soul-obliterating nightmares. Walter eventually becomes a successful businessman only to be stricken by another catastrophe: his father, at the age of seventy, is caught molesting a young boy. Walter is asked to confront his father. Walter convenes his family, and in a private conference with a psychiatrist, the father agrees to be surgically castrated. De Milly's portraits of his relationships with his father and mother, and the confrontation that leads to his father's bizarre and irreversible voluntary "cure," are certain to be remembered long after the reader has set aside this powerful contribution to the literature of incest survival. De Milly's memoir tells the story of his sexual abuse as a child by his father, and of his father's eventual castration. Yet the book never becomes a simple case of shock value. Telling a complete story, de Milly offers a universal perspective that explores the effect of incest on an entire family, the relationship of an abuser and his victim, the child's experience of abuse, and the victim's treatment options and path to recovery, as an adult. The result is both a chilling memoir that adds an important voice to our Living Out series and an essential contribution to sexual abuse literature-one that will offer invaluable aid to therapists and victims.Read More